Overcoming the inevitable “Oh fuck…” point in EVERY creative project

When I get commissioned for a painting, I feel thrilled. Excited. Eager to start. I purchase the supplies necessary and may even watch a YouTube tutorial to make sure my skills are fine-tuned and ready to go. I think about the painting a lot before I do it. I feel giddy. And then I go […]

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Day 119 of 365: Goodbye, daily blog.

Right. So. I’ve been focusing on feeling emotions in my body rather than focusing all my energy on labeling them in my mind. And a couple hours ago, I was sitting on the sofa, feeling into my body… And I felt anxious and uncertain and afraid. And I was like,¬†what does this remind me of? […]

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Day 86 of 365: I’m a sprinter.

There are all these sayings about life being a marathon, not a sprint. And for years, I tried to retrain myself into a marathon-mentality. And I hated it. It bored me. It’s like when I tried cross country running in high school. The first day of practice, I took off sprinting as hard and as […]

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Day 78 of 365: the cool shit that’s happened by relinquishing control

Since starting this journey into the unknown and trusting the Universe to guide me toward my dreams (rather than trying to force everything), a lot has happened. I’ve had to let go of most of the things I thought I knew. Growth and expansion is happening so fast that I soon as I grasp onto […]

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Day 26 of 365: life is starting to feel like a field trip.

I mean sure, it’s short. It’s 22 pages and when it’s done it’ll be 10-15 pages. It’s for a short movie, which I feel is a good starting place. The full length screenplay (WHICH I WILL HAVE DONE BY OCTOBER 1ST THANKYAVERYMUCH) is being chipped away at each day. I spent something like 10 hours […]

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Day 24 of 365: when I slow down, everything speeds up

I’ve just spent the last four hours binge-writing (oooo, I like that phrase) a movie. I made a goal a few months ago that I’d have a movie written by my 31st birthday on October 1st. I’ve written movies before… But not actually. I more so used the script as a diary… A way to […]

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Day 22 of 365: life is one big road-trip

I’ve been in a cranky mood today. Rather than fight it or ignore it or do positive affirmations until it got scared and left, I’ve been feeling it. (Thankfully, I’ve gotten closer to the balance between the extremes of repression and dwelling.) So… I feel stuff fully and, just as it comes, the feeling goes. […]

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