“But does it really matter?” — a question / answer attitude adjustment

Over the last five and a half years, I’ve worked to remove distractions / baggage / stagnant energy / old beliefs and focused on learning to use my intuition. That tiny, raspy whisper has become louder and easier to decipher. Rather than occasionally hearing it, I have more of an ongoing conversation with this sense […]

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Day 112 of 365 days of relinquishing control: the point

What if the point is to take the pain we feel and transmute it into something beautiful? To express our pain, to sing it, paint it, scream it, rap it? To challenge our pain with sleeves of tattoos and crazy hair and colorful, frayed clothes? To translate our pain into poetry, prose, a magical world […]

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Day 104 of 365: feelings are life’s cheat codes

I’ve mentioned The Desire Map in a couple other posts. It’s a rad book by Danielle LaPorte. She also teaches a facilitator training program, and there are people around the world who are leading badass Desire Map workshops, helping connect folks with how they truly want to feel. The gist behind the program is that, […]

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Day 101 of 365: why I cut my hair at 2:30am.

3.5 years since my spontaneous spiritual awakening, and there are still days of these intense “oh shit…” realizations. It’s like, on a spiritual/emotional/mental level, I’ve somehow hit the ZOOM OUT button and gotten a clearer view of myself, who I am, and who I’m not. Oh–And who I’ve been trying to be. And it’s not […]

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Day 100 of 365: core desired feelings

I’ve been working through this kickass + challenging book over the last month: It’s changing everything for me. Or, rather, I’m changing everything for me as a result of the work I’m doing with this book. The first part is a normal book, explaining the importance (and necessity, really) of honing in on the way we […]

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Day 63 of 365: my newfound niche + letting go of the fight

Over the last few weeks, I’ve been allowing myself to be internal. I’ve been objectively viewing thoughts and feelings and patterned reactions, without fully engaging with them. Doing my best to not get hijacked by them. And, if hijack did happen (meaning if I found myself riding the neural pathways of an old patterned way […]

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Day 59 of 365: this human experience is…

I’ve recently come to terms with the fact that I experience life much differently than most. I’ve always felt everything deeply (with the exception of my years of numbing via alcohol and drugs), and I’ve always dealt with random mini-films in my head of fucked up images. I see faces everywhere. In trees. In the […]

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Day 25 of 365: fantasies and realities

I’ve been on a journey of self-allowance for quite some time now, and each day brings new surprises. What I mean by “self-allowance” is that I’m learning to accept myself, in all my glory. And, since I kept feelings/desires/fantasies hidden for so many years, I must first focus on allowance. Allowing those aspects of myself to […]

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Day 24 of 365: when I slow down, everything speeds up

I’ve just spent the last four hours binge-writing (oooo, I like that phrase) a movie. I made a goal a few months ago that I’d have a movie written by my 31st birthday on October 1st. I’ve written movies before… But not actually. I more so used the script as a diary… A way to […]

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