the infamous jen novel text message and why having a blog helps me keep friends

This just in: NOT EVERYONE EXPERIENCES LIFE THE WAY I DO. Here’s what’s even crazier… Most people have NO INTEREST in experiencing life the way I do. You mean… You don’t want to learn life lessons like you’re on a constant MarioKart speed boost? You don’t want to exchange long rambles about all aspects of […]

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Day 273 of 365: Who you are without an audience?

I didn’t pray a lot as a child, but I do remember one prayer I repeated often and desperately: “DEAR GOD, PLEASE MAKE ME POPULAR.” That was my focus. I was so desperate for people to like me. And not just a few people. A LOT of people. ALL of the people. All of my […]

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Day 272 of 365: transcending “that’s because…”

“You could convince me to buy a bag of dog poop,” a young coworker said to me last week. I worked in and excelled at sales for many years, and was told I could sell ice to an Eskimo. I always saw it as a compliment and a good thing, but when young’n at work […]

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Day 262 of 365: the importance of “the dark night of the soul”

I’ve heard that a dark night of the soul is when all our worst fears manifest… And we live through them. And, just like a character in a movie, we are challenged to rise from the ashes and flourish into a better version of ourselves. For years, my primary fears were external… And ego-based. My […]

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Day 102 of 365: turns out I’m an outspoken person.

It turns out that I’m an outspoken person. This surprises me. I always¬†thought outspoken things. I’d stand up to or disagree with or challenge people in my mind, but raaarrely aloud. I think that’s one of my favorite things about sobriety and about my journey of self-actualization; as I move forward and remain present, it’s […]

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Day 101 of 365: why I cut my hair at 2:30am.

3.5 years since my spontaneous spiritual awakening, and there are still days of these intense “oh shit…” realizations. It’s like, on a spiritual/emotional/mental level, I’ve somehow hit the ZOOM OUT button and gotten a clearer view of myself, who I am, and who I’m not. Oh–And who I’ve been trying to be. And it’s not […]

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Day 100 of 365: core desired feelings

I’ve been working through this kickass + challenging book over the last month: It’s changing everything for me. Or, rather,¬†I’m changing everything for me as a result of the work I’m doing with this book. The first part is a normal book, explaining the importance (and necessity, really) of honing in on the way we […]

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