“But does it really matter?” — a question / answer attitude adjustment

August 26, 2019.Reading time 14 minutes.

Over the last five and a half years, I’ve worked to remove distractions / baggage / stagnant energy / old beliefs and focused on learning to use my intuition. That tiny, raspy whisper has become louder and easier to decipher. Rather than occasionally hearing it, I have more of an ongoing conversation with this sense […]

Day 29 of 30: On wanting more.

May 30, 2019.Reading time 3 minutes.

She had always wanted more. More than she had. More than she thought possible. More than she thought she deserved. More than others said feasible. She wanted more. She spent each minute planning, analyzing, digging, and hoping to find what she was looking for. She was deeply dedicated and hardworking. She assumed this made her […]

Day 17 of 30: On doing the scary thing

May 18, 2019.Reading time 9 minutes.

“Thunder thighs.” “Tree trunk legs.” “Why do you waddle like that?” “Your ass isn’t as nice as it looks.” “Your thighs are so big.” “You have such tiny knees for such big legs.” … I’d like to say that these were easy comments to forget… That the multitude of compliments I received outweighed these stinging […]

Day 13 of 30: It’s okay to not be okay.

May 14, 2019.Reading time 6 minutes.

It’s okay for you to not be at your A game. As my boyfriend says, “You can’t always be a super hero. Let me help carry the burden during your in-between times.” And that’s what we do for each other in partnerships and friendships. Part of taking care of ourselves means giving ourselves permission to […]

DAY EIGHT: stop shoulding all over yourself

May 9, 2019.Reading time 8 minutes.

I’m a 32 year old woman, and thus society has taught me that I should:-Have a husband-Have children-Own a house-Have a high-paying full-time job-Dress “my age” And so on. Obviously these aren’t exacts, but it’s what I’ve interpreted through my journey. When I meet people, often their first question is “Do you have any kids?” To which […]

DAY SIX: Why getting triggered is a GOOD thing

May 7, 2019.Reading time 12 minutes.

I mean, a big part of my confusions came from being an empath. I’m an intuitively and energetically and emotionally sensitive being, able to pick up on subtle shifts from others’ feelings. This is a beautiful gift when harnessed correctly, and yet an exhausting curse when misunderstood or not healthily maintained.

DAY FIVE: Saying yes to what arises

May 6, 2019.Reading time 9 minutes.

May, Myself, & I: A Self-Love Experiment DAY FIVE: Saying yes to what arises. 5/6/2019 It’s easy to think that being a spiritually aware person means I need to be happy all the time. I ought to be grateful all the time. If I was really awakened, I’d only feel love and peace and shit […]

DAY FOUR: It’s none of my business what you think of me.

May 5, 2019.Reading time 12 minutes.

I lived many years in the illusion that I could control whether you liked me. I wanted everyone to like me or want me or want to be me. My sense of worth came from if I thought I’d impressed you. If a post had a lot of likes or if I made someone laugh, I’d feel as though I’d earned my keep that day. As if my life isn’t worth living if I’m not making some substantial difference in millions of people’s lives.

DAY TWO (a few days late): May, Myself, & I ~ A Self-Love Experiment

May 3, 2019.Reading time 9 minutes.

May, Myself, & I: A Self-Love Experiment DAY TWO: 5/3/2019 I’ve completed a second full day of being mindful of the way I speak to and about myself, on top of taking care to treat myself with the same love and patience I offer others. I’m adding in a little romance, a lot of gentleness, […]