Day 29 of 30: On wanting more.

She had always wanted more. More than she had. More than she thought possible. More than she thought she deserved. More than others said feasible. She wanted more. She spent each minute planning, analyzing, digging, and hoping to find what she was looking for. She was deeply dedicated and hardworking. She assumed this made her […]

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Day 264 of 365: life is a carousel

Life is a carousel. With limited options of animals to ride. In time, all the creatures look the same. Eyes, mouths, legs, tails, up and down in predisposed rhythmic motions. Animal instincts ripped away, obsolete. I take a defibrillator to my perspective to jumpstart gratitude. Focus on details. Appreciate minutia. Spots. Stripes. Hues of fur. […]

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Day 107 of 365: Sometimes I wonder…

Sometimes, when I meet new people, I look at their teeth and their eyes. I wonder what their smile is hiding, I wonder the last time they cried, and I wonder what would happen if I wrapped them in a warm, open-hearted hug. I wonder about their insecurities and the narrative currently running through their […]

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Day 103 of 365: are we all lost? – a poem

Are we all lost? Are we all living under a clever ruse- A mask we’ve adopted as our own- To protect us from the truth? The truth is pain For every single one of us; Pain that manifests in different ways: Illness, aches, emotions, mental issues. The truth is bliss For every single one of […]

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Day 95 of 365: “do nothing” — advice from 90-year-old me.

I walked into the room, though the silence of my footsteps made it seem I was floating. I remember it was breezy, surprisingly breezy. The air was fresh and circulating in a gentle yet convincing whirlwind between the two open windows on either side of the bed. There were thin curtains caressing each window, white […]

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Day 71 of 365: I am not broken – a poem

I am not broken. You try to “fix” me, To plug in different variables Attempting to solve the problem Of my discomfort. I pray your intentions are pure, That you want to help me. And yet… It seems you want me to “feel better” Because you are uncomfortable With my darkness and pain.   I […]

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Day 42 of 365: I chose the good spoon today.

I have a favorite spoon. It’s modest, even shorter than the others inhabiting the small spoon section of the silverware drawer. Its top is round, not quite a perfect circle but close enough to remind me of one each time I view it, and it’s a silver color that dons both shine and wear. It’s […]

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Day 14 of 365: “Wind” — A poem

Fresh, warm, and cushioned with humidity, It moves at its own pace. Without obvious design, as if an interpretive dance, It twists And turns Into intricate shapes, Like a drawing where pen never leaves page. It does this for no one. Its whirlwind romance with scattered leaves Is not to impress the sun Or moon […]

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Day 6 of 365: “The Pause” – A Poem

The Pause   The mind whispers to me in clichés, Snippets of repetitive phrases Learned from a lifetime as a sponge. Sometimes I speak back, Challenging its elementary wording, And it pauses, wide-eyed, Like a child who was interrupted While deeply immersed In a game of make-believe.   ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Part of me fears posting a […]

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