I can hear the birds again. (A description of journeying through depression.)

September 21, 2019.Reading time 23 minutes.

I can hear birds again. Outside, they’re chirping. It’s subtle and crisp and beautiful. I can hear the breeze and feel it on my skin. It rustles the changing leaves and whisks a few of them onto a windy ride to the earth’s floor. I can see the sky. I’ve viewed it previously, but today […]

I released my emotional cheat codes into an eBook called Volume Control. If you struggle with suicidality or depression, read this.

September 17, 2019.Reading time 7 minutes.

Hello, fellow humanoid. Take a peek at the intro from my new book below. If it tickles your fancy, the download link is at the bottom of this post. (If you know someone who has the volume turned up on life who may benefit from reading this book, please share it with them. It’s truly […]

Why I love “getting triggered” so much and why I wish people would stop avoiding it

June 24, 2019.Reading time 12 minutes.

I adore getting triggered. Here’s what I mean about “getting triggered”: It’s when whatever is happening in the present moment somehow (in even the tiniest way) resembles a past pain or trauma, and my brain recognizes this and sounds the alarm system in a desperate attempt to protect me. Fight or flight or freeze activates, […]

NEXT STOP: SELF-TOLERANCE (for those who don’t yet love themselves — and why that’s totally okay)

June 19, 2019.Reading time 11 minutes.

“If you don’t love yourself yet, you’re probably doing all that self-work wrong. Work harder.” <– That’s the message I kept receiving while on my journey. And, frankly, it’s bullshit.

What Bob Ross told me about Right vs. Wrong

June 17, 2019.Reading time 8 minutes.

I can often paralyze myself with hyper-analysis around the right or wrong thing to do in any given situation. It’s draining and exhausting and annoying. My boyfriend made me this awesome cross stitch of Bob Ross. It sits on my altar space[1] next to a chipped mini statue of Buddha’s head and some stones and […]

the importance of telling on ourselves

June 11, 2019.Reading time 10 minutes.

Earlier today, I was caught in a trance. Self-doubt, insecurity, fear, and an overall downward and inward spiral. I felt sad about my living situation, my job, the fact that the residual stuff from Breast Implant Illness impacts my mental clarity. I felt down about my overall life. I felt like a failure. Like a […]

Day 29 of 30: On wanting more.

May 30, 2019.Reading time 3 minutes.

She had always wanted more. More than she had. More than she thought possible. More than she thought she deserved. More than others said feasible. She wanted more. She spent each minute planning, analyzing, digging, and hoping to find what she was looking for. She was deeply dedicated and hardworking. She assumed this made her […]

Day 27 of 30: My happy looks different than your happy.

May 28, 2019.Reading time 9 minutes.

I am so freaking excited that I only have two days left of this month, and that the May, Myself, and I Self-Love Experiment will come to a close. I mean, I’m still gonna’ love myself and dig deep and do healing work because that’s who I am. But setting something as charged as “self-love” […]

Day 26 of 30: Remember that time you melted down in the Kroger self checkout lane and screamed profanity while punching the machine…?

May 27, 2019.Reading time 9 minutes.

…And your then-boyfriend had to tackle you to the ground and quietly convince you to leave? And you pushed the automatic doors off their hinges because they just weren’t opening fast enough JUST LIKE NOTHING EVER WORKED OUT FOR YOU ANYWAY? No? Oh. That’s right. That was me. See… After my spontaneous spiritual awakening… PAUSE BUTTON. […]