Striving for a life of awareness, of forward progression, of knowing better and doing better, of being mindful and understanding and loving while also having healthy boundaries and self care without being too selfish, of communicating openly and honestly and sharing emotion without speaking irrationally from emotion, of trusting and having faith even when evidence […]
Read MoreRight. So. I’m in the process of a mini awakening. FUCKIN’ ABOUT TIME. I’VE BEEN IN THE THICK OF IT FOR MONTHS. The times of suicidality and deep despair suck. (That’s putting it lightly.) And I will say that I appreciate the folks who have reached out and been like: “JEN. YOU CLEARLY NEED HELP. […]
Read MoreI walked into the room, though the silence of my footsteps made it seem I was floating. I remember it was breezy, surprisingly breezy. The air was fresh and circulating in a gentle yet convincing whirlwind between the two open windows on either side of the bed. There were thin curtains caressing each window, white […]
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Our bodies are constantly talking to us. Injuries, headaches, mental and emotional discomfort, that annoying lower back pain that won’t go away… They’re all messages. Maybe we’re carrying too much emotional baggage and our back pain is trying to inform us to let that shit go. Maybe we are absorbing rather than releasing anger and […]
Read MoreI’ve been working on my second book, entitled “big boobs + thigh gap: a journey beyond conventional beauty”. And by “working on” I mean aptly avoiding for two months. When searching for it today, I came upon a few other documents that acted as excellent distractions from the writing my heart really wanted to do. I […]
Read MoreWhen I saw that today was the 67th day, I was like, “Oh my! I’ve come so far! This is going by so fast!” And then I did math stuffs and discovered that I’m less than 19% complete with this daily embracing the unknown + writing about it gig. Still quite a bit to go. […]
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I keep an Artist’s Prayer on the wall in front of my desk. It’s a handwritten prayer to the Universe, which was the assigned task for Week 4, Day 26 of Julia Cameron’s book, The Artist’s Way. (Which is fabulous and all humans should utilize this book. The end.) The task is “Write your own […]
Read MoreFor years, when a friend or family member was ill or had gone through surgery or a heartbreak, I gave them space. That’s what you’re supposed to do, right? “I’ll let them be messy and do their healing thing and, if they need me, they’ll let me know.” Yea… Come to find out, that’s not really how […]
Read MoreI’ve tended to seek comfort being alone. When sad or vulnerable or hurting or scared, I’d find solace in my introvert time. I’d unplug for a few days, turn off all electronics, sit in the messiness, work through shit, come to realizations, and then take a shower, shave, do my hair, and turn my phone […]
Read MoreINCOMING ANALOGY. You know when you exercise, and it burns/hurts when you’re pushing your muscles and heart, and then you feel sore afterward? And you know how one of the best ways to help with the soreness is to exercise again? (And if you don’t, the soreness seems to last, like, two freakin’ weeks. And […]
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