Day 80 of 365: start before you’re ready. — a motivational rant.

I am really feeling the benefits of all of the retraining work I’ve been doing over the years… Specifically regarding limiting beliefs such as “I can’t make a living doing what I love” (saying that feels icky and gross now, whereas it used to be totally resonant). Beliefs around money, around receptivity, around love/commitment, and […]

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Day 78 of 365: the cool shit that’s happened by relinquishing control

Since starting this journey into the unknown and trusting the Universe to guide me toward my dreams (rather than trying to force everything), a lot has happened. I’ve had to let go of most of the things I thought I knew. Growth and expansion is happening so fast that I soon as I grasp onto […]

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Day 74 of 365: “dear life partner” — a blast-from-the-past letter

I’ve been working on my second book, entitled “big boobs + thigh gap: a journey beyond conventional beauty”. And by “working on” I mean aptly avoiding for two months. When searching for it today, I came upon a few other documents that acted as excellent distractions from the writing my heart really wanted to do. I […]

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Day 61 of 365: Reacting differently retrains old patterns.

This new advertisement thing happening via Facebook is overwhelming for me. Each time I log on (which isn’t frequently and is rarely for scrolling; I normally just log on to chat with a few people close to me) I’ll see some advertisement for writing a book or a blog or being a speaker. All things […]

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Day 60 of 365: why showing up is important.

For years, when a friend or family member was ill or had gone through surgery or a heartbreak, I gave them space. That’s what you’re supposed to do, right? “I’ll let them be messy and do their healing thing and, if they need me, they’ll let me know.” Yea… Come to find out, that’s not really how […]

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Day 59 of 365: this human experience is…

I’ve recently come to terms with the fact that I experience life much differently than most. I’ve always felt everything deeply (with the exception of my years of numbing via alcohol and drugs), and I’ve always dealt with random mini-films in my head of fucked up images. I see faces everywhere. In trees. In the […]

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Day 57 of 365: channeling my inner forrest gump

Okay. Two things. (Is it ever really two things, Jen?) No. But. It’s a diving off point, Parentheses. Give me a break. 1.) These last four days have been a shit-show of anger and meltdown and trigger-happy freak-outs and depression and the, like, third time I’ve cried in therapy. And stress-eating, which used to be […]

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Day 56 of 365: why I’m grateful for depression – a video

This is the second time I’ve written today’s blog entry. The first one put Frodo’s invisibility cloak on and is unable to be seen. That’s coo. I can redo it. I have officially survived this last depressive episode, which seemingly came out of nowhere. While in the stickiness of depression, it’s hard to know up […]

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