I was terrified to make this video. No, that’s not true. I enjoyed making this video. I was terrified to post it. See, I seem to do well until people respond well to something I’ve done. Once that has happened in the past, I’ve been like “WELP NOW THE PRESSURE IS ON TO PERFORM.” Plus, I set […]
Read MoreI’ve heard that a dark night of the soul is when all our worst fears manifest… And we live through them. And, just like a character in a movie, we are challenged to rise from the ashes and flourish into a better version of ourselves. For years, my primary fears were external… And ego-based. My […]
Read MoreI don’t know what the hangup is in my brain land about feeling okay, or feeling balanced, or middle of the road. I know how to navigate the extremes–I’ve lived most my life doing the electric slide back and forth between them. But this sense of ease? It feels like a threat to me. […]
Read MoreI hate that I struggle with suicidal shit sometimes. I really, really do. For a long time I didn’t. It was like an old friend to me. Now it’s more like a black hole… Or a magnet that attracts all my joy and flushes it. I haven’t wanted to write about it because I’m too […]
Read MoreRight. So. I’m in the process of a mini awakening. FUCKIN’ ABOUT TIME. I’VE BEEN IN THE THICK OF IT FOR MONTHS. The times of suicidality and deep despair suck. (That’s putting it lightly.) And I will say that I appreciate the folks who have reached out and been like: “JEN. YOU CLEARLY NEED HELP. […]
Read MoreI challenged myself to take yesterday off from writing a blog entry (after consistent daily posts for 107 days straight). This decision brought some anxiety, which I leaned into. Guess what? No one cared. (I guess there’s no way to know if this is true. But, even if someone was looking forward to a post […]
Read MoreThere was always a certain kind of person I despised. I considered them “bad” people, heartless people, selfish people, and so on. These were the folks who would take advantage of kind, giving humans; the folks who broke hearts without warning or explanation; those who made everything about them and flew the victim flag way up […]
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I’ve mentioned The Desire Map in a couple other posts. It’s a rad book by Danielle LaPorte. She also teaches a facilitator training program, and there are people around the world who are leading badass Desire Map workshops, helping connect folks with how they truly want to feel. The gist behind the program is that, […]
Read MoreOne of my favorite things to do is pick up a book, flip to a page, and read the first line or couple lines I see. I frequently get chills because of how spot-on the readings are for what I’m going through at the time. So, That’s what I’m gonna’ do with this entry. Leaving […]
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Our bodies are constantly talking to us. Injuries, headaches, mental and emotional discomfort, that annoying lower back pain that won’t go away… They’re all messages. Maybe we’re carrying too much emotional baggage and our back pain is trying to inform us to let that shit go. Maybe we are absorbing rather than releasing anger and […]
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