I can often paralyze myself with hyper-analysis around the right or wrong thing to do in any given situation. It’s draining and exhausting and annoying. My boyfriend made me this awesome cross stitch of Bob Ross. It sits on my altar space[1] next to a chipped mini statue of Buddha’s head and some stones and […]
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Geez. I can get so wrapped up in trying to figure out why I feel the way I feel. I think it’s in an effort to control the situation, or to at least have an illusion of control. There are times when a trigger is clear. I’m able to feel the verbalize the precise moment […]
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In hindsight I should have made the word “DIARRHEA” in cursive. Because. Y’know. It flows better. I DIGRESS. I imagine that if you’re a human and you’ve read a book ever, you’ll have heard of “creative block” or “writer’s block.” People go on friggen’ RETREATS and pay DOLLARS to push through this stuff. I used to […]
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Right. So. I’ve been focusing on feeling emotions in my body rather than focusing all my energy on labeling them in my mind. And a couple hours ago, I was sitting on the sofa, feeling into my body… And I felt anxious and uncertain and afraid. And I was like, what does this remind me of? […]
Read MoreOddly enough, I was hesitant to post this. I was like… “OH NO. WHAT IF THIS IS OBJECTIFICATION OR HINTING AT THE TWISTED BELIEF THAT WOMEN SHOWING OFF THEIR BODIES IS AN INVITATION FOR SEX OR OR OR”… And then I was like… But… It’s funny… And relatable. Like, I’ve been there. I think we […]
Read MoreYesterday, my months of somber sadness and what I’d deemed depression transformed into deep, fiery anger. I came to a realization that nearly every prayer I’ve ever spoken has been with one of two tones: Gratitude, thanking the Universe/God for every tiny thing (even if/when I felt like a bag of asses). Desperate pleading, begging […]
Read MoreI shared some stuff in therapy today about how I was first introduced to the spiritually “awakened” community after my spontaneous awakening. I thought that moving into a tribe-like atmosphere with other intuitive empaths who wanted to make the world a better place would mean that there was no egotistical self-serving bullshit. Which now makes […]
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Since starting this journey into the unknown and trusting the Universe to guide me toward my dreams (rather than trying to force everything), a lot has happened. I’ve had to let go of most of the things I thought I knew. Growth and expansion is happening so fast that I soon as I grasp onto […]
Read MoreI woke up this morning after about 3 hours of sleep feeling a fire within me. It’s a fire I haven’t felt in a few weeks. (It’s a little spark more than a fire. I don’t want to breathe too hard and blow it out.) In the past, I’d say, “THE DEPRESSIVE EPISODE IS LEAVING! […]
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