What Bob Ross told me about Right vs. Wrong

I can often paralyze myself with hyper-analysis around the right or wrong thing to do in any given situation. It’s draining and exhausting and annoying. My boyfriend made me this awesome cross stitch of Bob Ross. It sits on my altar space[1] next to a chipped mini statue of Buddha’s head and some stones and […]

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the importance of telling on ourselves

Earlier today, I was caught in a trance. Self-doubt, insecurity, fear, and an overall downward and inward spiral. I felt sad about my living situation, my job, the fact that the residual stuff from Breast Implant Illness impacts my mental clarity. I felt down about my overall life. I felt like a failure. Like a […]

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Day 29 of 30: On wanting more.

She had always wanted more. More than she had. More than she thought possible. More than she thought she deserved. More than others said feasible. She wanted more. She spent each minute planning, analyzing, digging, and hoping to find what she was looking for. She was deeply dedicated and hardworking. She assumed this made her […]

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Day 16 of 30: The power of “I don’t know.”

Geez. I can get so wrapped up in trying to figure out why I feel the way I feel. I think it’s in an effort to control the situation, or to at least have an illusion of control. There are times when a trigger is clear. I’m able to feel the verbalize the precise moment […]

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“jimi didn’t start out awesome.”

Let me tell you how important it is to suck at stuff. Very. It’s so very important to look like an idiot, to fail, to get rejected, and to do something before you’re good at it. It’s, like, a billion important. This past weekend I went to Piedmont Park with a couple rapper friends, and we […]

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Day 119 of 365: Goodbye, daily blog.

Right. So. I’ve been focusing on feeling emotions in my body rather than focusing all my energy on labeling them in my mind. And a couple hours ago, I was sitting on the sofa, feeling into my body… And I felt anxious and uncertain and afraid. And I was like, what does this remind me of? […]

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Day 111 of 365: realizing that other people can be asshats + taking my power back.

I shared some stuff in therapy today about how I was first introduced to the spiritually “awakened” community after my spontaneous awakening. I thought that moving into a tribe-like atmosphere with other intuitive empaths who wanted to make the world a better place would mean that there was no egotistical self-serving bullshit. Which now makes […]

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Day 103 of 365: are we all lost? – a poem

Are we all lost? Are we all living under a clever ruse- A mask we’ve adopted as our own- To protect us from the truth? The truth is pain For every single one of us; Pain that manifests in different ways: Illness, aches, emotions, mental issues. The truth is bliss For every single one of […]

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Day 78 of 365: the cool shit that’s happened by relinquishing control

Since starting this journey into the unknown and trusting the Universe to guide me toward my dreams (rather than trying to force everything), a lot has happened. I’ve had to let go of most of the things I thought I knew. Growth and expansion is happening so fast that I soon as I grasp onto […]

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