I am 33 years old and I’m learning how to be an adult. As a kid, I rarely pushed through discomfort. My parents wanted a better life for me than what they had so they gave me all the things I could ever want. For this, I’m eternally grateful. Like anything in life, too much […]
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This just in: NOT EVERYONE EXPERIENCES LIFE THE WAY I DO. Here’s what’s even crazier… Most people have NO INTEREST in experiencing life the way I do. You mean… You don’t want to learn life lessons like you’re on a constant MarioKart speed boost? You don’t want to exchange long rambles about all aspects of […]
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In hindsight I should have made the word “DIARRHEA” in cursive. Because. Y’know. It flows better. I DIGRESS. I imagine that if you’re a human and you’ve read a book ever, you’ll have heard of “creative block” or “writer’s block.” People go on friggen’ RETREATS and pay DOLLARS to push through this stuff. I used to […]
Read MoreI don’t know what the hangup is in my brain land about feeling okay, or feeling balanced, or middle of the road. I know how to navigate the extremes–I’ve lived most my life doing the electric slide back and forth between them. But this sense of ease? It feels like a threat to me. […]
Read MoreI challenged myself to take yesterday off from writing a blog entry (after consistent daily posts for 107 days straight). This decision brought some anxiety, which I leaned into. Guess what? No one cared. (I guess there’s no way to know if this is true. But, even if someone was looking forward to a post […]
Read MoreThere was always a certain kind of person I despised. I considered them “bad” people, heartless people, selfish people, and so on. These were the folks who would take advantage of kind, giving humans; the folks who broke hearts without warning or explanation; those who made everything about them and flew the victim flag way up […]
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I tend to put too much pressure on myself. As if this one post or this one speech or this one BJ or this one dinner is going to be the be-all-end-all for a person or, or life-changing for a group of people. I constantly pressure myself to perform. A lot of times, I hesitate […]
Read MoreI’ve been working on my second book, entitled “big boobs + thigh gap: a journey beyond conventional beauty”. And by “working on” I mean aptly avoiding for two months. When searching for it today, I came upon a few other documents that acted as excellent distractions from the writing my heart really wanted to do. I […]
Read MoreAaannndd the darkness continues. Which is fine. I decided to give myself the opportunity to release some of the anger I had maybe been carrying around with me. I opened a word document and wrote about 5,000 words nonstop. I didn’t know I had that much anger in me. I feel like I could write […]
Read MoreI woke up this morning after about 3 hours of sleep feeling a fire within me. It’s a fire I haven’t felt in a few weeks. (It’s a little spark more than a fire. I don’t want to breathe too hard and blow it out.) In the past, I’d say, “THE DEPRESSIVE EPISODE IS LEAVING! […]
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