Day 273 of 365: Who you are without an audience?

I didn’t pray a lot as a child, but I do remember one prayer I repeated often and desperately: “DEAR GOD, PLEASE MAKE ME POPULAR.” That was my focus. I was so desperate for people to like me. And not just a few people. A LOT of people. ALL of the people. All of my […]

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Day 251 of 365: to feel different, I have to *be* different

Oh dear lord, the shit show I got myself into over the last week. So I was in Sedona, having an amazing vacation with my amazing cousin, and then I got triggered. Some ass hat tour guide was showing us vortexes and she thought she could hold space for emotional healing and: A. At no […]

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Day 105 of 365: hindsight and humility and ouchy realizations

There was always a certain kind of person I despised. I considered them “bad” people, heartless people, selfish people, and so on. These were the folks who would take advantage of kind, giving humans; the folks who broke hearts without warning or explanation; those who made everything about them and flew the victim flag way up […]

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Day 19 of 365: divorcing illusions of grandeur

Have I mentioned that this 365 days of embracing the unknown + writing about it journey is sort of rocking my world? It is. And it’s only day nineteen. Gulp. Part of me wants to beat myself up about not posting a doodle for yesterday’s blog entry. BUT JEN. EVERYONE LOVES YOUR DOODLES. THAT’S WHAT […]

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Day 10 of 365: “BECAUSE I DO HAVE A STICK UP MY ASS!”

I’m feeling hungry, excited, curious, motivated, and hungry. And hungry. I also really want to finish the Matrix trilogy tonight because I accidentally Amazon-rented and started watching the 3rd one before the 2nd one last night, and I only have a 24-hour window to finish watching a rented movie once I start it. TIME CRUNCH HERE, PEOPLE. […]

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