Analysis Paralysis, Self-Sabotage, & Intellectual Masturbation

Mostly I’m excited that I wrote the word “masturbation” in the title of this blog entry. I haven’t posted in over a month, which is the longest I’ve gone without posting in [insert dramatically long time here]. Guess what happened? Welp, I started making fun doodle videos… Like this one about how to be less […]

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Day 289 of 365: cocoon of safety

Striving for a life of awareness, of forward progression, of knowing better and doing better, of being mindful and understanding and loving while also having healthy boundaries and self care without being too selfish, of communicating openly and honestly and sharing emotion without speaking irrationally from emotion, of trusting and having faith even when evidence […]

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Day 262 of 365: the importance of “the dark night of the soul”

I’ve heard that a dark night of the soul is when all our worst fears manifest… And we live through them. And, just like a character in a movie, we are challenged to rise from the ashes and flourish into a better version of ourselves. For years, my primary fears were external… And ego-based. My […]

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Day 116 of 365: I want…

There’s so much I want to do. People I want to hang out with, and new folks I want to meet. There is so much I want to learn. Books I want to read, and museums I want to visit. There is so much I want to experience. Countries I want to see, and mountains […]

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Day 114 of 365: practice what I preach

It’s funny; I was practicing a rap/rhyme I recently finished writing and suddenly had this moment of heightened awareness where I really paid attention to the words I said… And the true meaning behind them. And I realized… Fuck. I’m not living up to the standards I’ve set. Specifically: If we pretend we’re who we’re not Lack […]

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Day 91 of 365: I had a good conversation with my knee today.

Our bodies are constantly talking to us. Injuries, headaches, mental and emotional discomfort, that annoying lower back pain that won’t go away… They’re all messages. Maybe we’re carrying too much emotional baggage and our back pain is trying to inform us to let that shit go. Maybe we are absorbing rather than releasing anger and […]

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Day 87 of 365: scared & brave

There is a time and place for positive affirmations. Pep talks are great to have from others and especially from ourselves, especially when from an authentic place. But a trap I have been caught in (and I think a lot of other people get here, too) went a little like this: -Jen feels terrified. -Jen […]

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Day 76 of 365: Breaking wide open.

Yes. 365 days of embracing the unknown and learning about chance and letting serendipity lead the ways sounds so FUN AND RAINBOWY. IT IS ALSO THE MOST CHALLENGING TRANSFORMATION I’VE EVER EXPERIENCED. Like… What. The fuck. Is happening. In my life. I feel like I’ve been shot out of a cannon and am flailing around […]

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Day 53 of 365: I’m only human, after all.

I’ve been listening to a few specific songs by Rag’n’Bone Man lately. This is him: And he sings with his fucking soul. Songs that I can feel in my bones: Human, Grace, Skin, and As You Are. There are these few lines in “Human” that I find myself repeating throughout the day: I’m only human, after […]

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Day 52 of 365: how to become spiritually fit

INCOMING ANALOGY. You know when you exercise, and it burns/hurts when you’re pushing your muscles and heart, and then you feel sore afterward? And you know how one of the best ways to help with the soreness is to exercise again? (And if you don’t, the soreness seems to last, like, two freakin’ weeks. And […]

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