Stop driving yourself crazy trying to do the “right” things

There’s no way to know what to do. Where to go. What to say, to whom. There’s no way to really know what’s “right”. Sure; there’s the moment-to-moment gut instincts. But even those aren’t always reliable… Since fear can oftentimes mask itself as intuitive guidance. I often feel like we are our own labyrinths to […]

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Day 272 of 365: transcending “that’s because…”

“You could convince me to buy a bag of dog poop,” a young coworker said to me last week. I worked in and excelled at sales for many years, and was told I could sell ice to an Eskimo. I always saw it as a compliment and a good thing, but when young’n at work […]

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Day 117 of 365: Switching the approach + introducing daily real-life doodles

So. Here’s the thing. We are all on our own individual messy journey of self-discovery. Some people avoid/numb it, others embrace it and go with the flow, and then there are the folks who are overly dedicated to the point of burn-out and exhaustion. I BETCHA CAN’T GUESS WHICH ONE I AM. … IT’S THE […]

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Day 114 of 365: practice what I preach

It’s funny; I was practicing a rap/rhyme I recently finished writing and suddenly had this moment of heightened awareness where I really paid attention to the words I said… And the true meaning behind them. And I realized… Fuck. I’m not living up to the standards I’ve set. Specifically: If we pretend we’re who we’re not Lack […]

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Day 113 of 365: demanding a miracle.

Yesterday, my months of somber sadness and what I’d deemed depression transformed into deep, fiery anger. I came to a realization that nearly every prayer I’ve ever spoken has been with one of two tones: Gratitude, thanking the Universe/God for every tiny thing (even if/when I felt like a bag of asses). Desperate pleading, begging […]

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Day 102 of 365: turns out I’m an outspoken person.

It turns out that I’m an outspoken person. This surprises me. I always thought outspoken things. I’d stand up to or disagree with or challenge people in my mind, but raaarrely aloud. I think that’s one of my favorite things about sobriety and about my journey of self-actualization; as I move forward and remain present, it’s […]

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Day 87 of 365: scared & brave

There is a time and place for positive affirmations. Pep talks are great to have from others and especially from ourselves, especially when from an authentic place. But a trap I have been caught in (and I think a lot of other people get here, too) went a little like this: -Jen feels terrified. -Jen […]

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Day 83 of 365: 2017 is my year of clarity, and has taught me…

Every year, I pick one or two words has the THEME for that year. My focus. 2017 is the year of Clarity. Mostly I picked Clarity because I wanted clarity on how to make a shit pile of money doing what I love. Y’know, because that’s an easy answer. UNIVERSE, MAKE IT CLEAR HOW I CAN […]

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Day 69 (teehee) of 365: throwing out the eraser

“I’m totally closed off to you right now,” I said to my therapist. “Okay,” she said, in her normal, allowing tone. She lightly smiled in the way that she does when she’s excited that I’m expressing distaste (because that’s a challenge for me–to tell someone they’ve pissed me off). “Last week, I was in here… […]

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