Day 272 of 365: transcending “that’s because…”

“You could convince me to buy a bag of dog poop,” a young coworker said to me last week. I worked in and excelled at sales for many years, and was told I could sell ice to an Eskimo. I always saw it as a compliment and a good thing, but when young’n at work […]

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Day 117 of 365: Switching the approach + introducing daily real-life doodles

So. Here’s the thing. We are all on our own individual messy journey of self-discovery. Some people avoid/numb it, others embrace it and go with the flow, and then there are the folks who are overly dedicated to the point of burn-out and exhaustion. I BETCHA CAN’T GUESS WHICH ONE I AM. … IT’S THE […]

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Day 114 of 365: practice what I preach

It’s funny; I was practicing a rap/rhyme I recently finished writing and suddenly had this moment of heightened awareness where I really paid attention to the words I said… And the true meaning behind them. And I realized… Fuck. I’m not living up to the standards I’ve set. Specifically: If we pretend we’re who we’re not Lack […]

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Day 113 of 365: demanding a miracle.

Yesterday, my months of somber sadness and what I’d deemed depression transformed into deep, fiery anger. I came to a realization that nearly every prayer I’ve ever spoken has been with one of two tones: Gratitude, thanking the Universe/God for every tiny thing (even if/when I felt like a bag of asses). Desperate pleading, begging […]

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Day 102 of 365: turns out I’m an outspoken person.

It turns out that I’m an outspoken person. This surprises me. I always thought outspoken things. I’d stand up to or disagree with or challenge people in my mind, but raaarrely aloud. I think that’s one of my favorite things about sobriety and about my journey of self-actualization; as I move forward and remain present, it’s […]

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Day 87 of 365: scared & brave

There is a time and place for positive affirmations. Pep talks are great to have from others and especially from ourselves, especially when from an authentic place. But a trap I have been caught in (and I think a lot of other people get here, too) went a little like this: -Jen feels terrified. -Jen […]

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Day 83 of 365: 2017 is my year of clarity, and has taught me…

Every year, I pick one or two words has the THEME for that year. My focus. 2017 is the year of Clarity. Mostly I picked Clarity because I wanted clarity on how to make a shit pile of money doing what I love. Y’know, because that’s an easy answer. UNIVERSE, MAKE IT CLEAR HOW I CAN […]

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Day 69 (teehee) of 365: throwing out the eraser

“I’m totally closed off to you right now,” I said to my therapist. “Okay,” she said, in her normal, allowing tone. She lightly smiled in the way that she does when she’s excited that I’m expressing distaste (because that’s a challenge for me–to tell someone they’ve pissed me off). “Last week, I was in here… […]

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