MOODY ANIMALS – a coloring book for your emotions

October 1, 2019.Reading time 2 minutes.

I’ve had lots of amazingly fun breakthroughs lately, which is par for the course after a few weeks in a deep dark pit of despair. I’ve found that depressive episodes are often indicative of old fear being stripped from me, or new motivation being “installed.” I always come out on the other side a better […]

Day 25 of 30: on celebrating [even tiny] victories

May 26, 2019.Reading time 9 minutes.

Humans are adaptable creatures. We see our individual selves every day. We are constantly experiencing our inner world, witnessing our lives through our subjective viewpoint. Oftentimes, we are unable to recognize improvements or change. If we do something drastic – like chopping off hair or getting a new tattoo – we see it. And we […]

My relationship with emotions – A DOODLE

October 20, 2018.Reading time less than 1 minute.

doodle video #2 — WILL SMITH ISN’T GOING TO RESCUE ME (and other things depression has taught me)

July 12, 2018.Reading time 1 minute.

I was terrified to make this video. No, that’s not true. I enjoyed making this video. I was terrified to post it. See, I seem to do well until people respond well to something I’ve done. Once that has happened in the past, I’ve been like “WELP NOW THE PRESSURE IS ON TO PERFORM.” Plus, I set […]

Day 289 of 365: cocoon of safety

April 8, 2018.Reading time 6 minutes.

Striving for a life of awareness, of forward progression, of knowing better and doing better, of being mindful and understanding and loving while also having healthy boundaries and self care without being too selfish, of communicating openly and honestly and sharing emotion without speaking irrationally from emotion, of trusting and having faith even when evidence […]

Day 270 of 365: feel the suck. get the prize.

March 20, 2018.Reading time 5 minutes.

My boyfriend is a generally happy person. He lives his life in the middle numbers on the 1-10 scale. That’s kind of his base level of existence. When I get in wonky places, he’s able to easily snap me out of them. He’ll call me on my shit if I’m having a pity party, or […]

Day 105 of 365: hindsight and humility and ouchy realizations

October 3, 2017.Reading time 11 minutes.

There was always a certain kind of person I despised. I considered them “bad” people, heartless people, selfish people, and so on. These were the folks who would take advantage of kind, giving humans; the folks who broke hearts without warning or explanation; those who made everything about them and flew the victim flag way up […]

Day 98 of 365: “be weak”

September 27, 2017.Reading time 1 minute.

“When did this happen?” the EA (Emotions Anonymous) member asked me. “Last night,” I said. She was visibly shocked. “Wow! You’re doing way better than I was in that situation. I was a mess. You’re really holding it together!” She said this like it was a good thing. “My issue isn’t with being able to […]