There’s no way to know what to do. Where to go. What to say, to whom. There’s no way to really know what’s “right”. Sure; there’s the moment-to-moment gut instincts. But even those aren’t always reliable… Since fear can oftentimes mask itself as intuitive guidance. I often feel like we are our own labyrinths to […]
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My hours got cut at work. And I am amped. I’ve bounced back and forth between I CLEARLY MUST HAVE A SUCCESSFUL FREELANCE CAREER DOING WHAT I LOVE. and Realistically, having the structure of a normal desk job is good for me. Maybe I should commit myself to a full-time schedule? Is that the responsible […]
Read MoreFrom the outside, Carl appeared to be quite similar to the other blobs. Really, the main difference was how he saw the world, how he felt, and what he thought. But, since this was all internal, no one else could see it. And they certainly didn’t understand it. The more he opened his mouth and […]
Read MoreI frequently should all over myself. I’ll get into this feedback loop in my mind where any anxious energy somehow spews out of the mental container and gets all over my mental to do list. I think anxiety and fear are just excitement without breath, and I believe the energy can be used to make […]
Read MoreThere are all these sayings about life being a marathon, not a sprint. And for years, I tried to retrain myself into a marathon-mentality. And I hated it. It bored me. It’s like when I tried cross country running in high school. The first day of practice, I took off sprinting as hard and as […]
Read MoreHi. The first two pages of the rough draft of my second book, “Big Boobs + Thigh Gap: a journey beyond body obsession” were shared in Day 79’s post, here. The book is evolving as I write it, as all creative projects tend to do. (It’s like the original idea is the doorway to the […]
Read MoreSince starting this journey into the unknown and trusting the Universe to guide me toward my dreams (rather than trying to force everything), a lot has happened. I’ve had to let go of most of the things I thought I knew. Growth and expansion is happening so fast that I soon as I grasp onto […]
Read MoreINCOMING ANALOGY. You know when you exercise, and it burns/hurts when you’re pushing your muscles and heart, and then you feel sore afterward? And you know how one of the best ways to help with the soreness is to exercise again? (And if you don’t, the soreness seems to last, like, two freakin’ weeks. And […]
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