I’m learning that I’m kind of an odd bird. Like, I’ve worked really hard to expand my awareness and become less… I dunno… overanalytical or contradicting. And to overall tone down the inherent crazy female brain I have. I hesitate to write something like that because I anticipate someone being like “THIS IS THE PROBLEM. […]
Read MoreHi. The first two pages of the rough draft of my second book, “Big Boobs + Thigh Gap: a journey beyond body obsession” were shared in Day 79’s post, here. The book is evolving as I write it, as all creative projects tend to do. (It’s like the original idea is the doorway to the […]
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“I’m totally closed off to you right now,” I said to my therapist. “Okay,” she said, in her normal, allowing tone. She lightly smiled in the way that she does when she’s excited that I’m expressing distaste (because that’s a challenge for me–to tell someone they’ve pissed me off). “Last week, I was in here… […]
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I just watched The Big Sick, a movie based on a true story. It’s a romantic comedy, and it’s enjoyable, and my eyeballs did this thing where they started sweating (but, due to my odd inability to cry in public, my body absorbed the eye water), and after I left I felt content and inspired […]
Read MoreI’ve been on a journey of self-allowance for quite some time now, and each day brings new surprises. What I mean by “self-allowance” is that I’m learning to accept myself, in all my glory. And, since I kept feelings/desires/fantasies hidden for so many years, I must first focus on allowance. Allowing those aspects of myself to […]
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I don’t know what to write about. Not that it makes any difference, because even when I go into an entry “knowing” what I’m going to write, I end up talking about something totally different. So the initial sense of knowingness is just a doorway, I suppose. And tonight, my doorway is “I don’t know.” […]
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Have I mentioned that this 365 days of embracing the unknown + writing about it journey is sort of rocking my world? It is. And it’s only day nineteen. Gulp. Part of me wants to beat myself up about not posting a doodle for yesterday’s blog entry. BUT JEN. EVERYONE LOVES YOUR DOODLES. THAT’S WHAT […]
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It normally takes me an hour or so to put together a post. Mostly this is because doodles happen. And because a few readthroughs and revisions happen. Tonight, I’m skipping the readthrough/revision part* and am going right for the flowy writing, allowing whatever the heck to come out, while also incorporating the doodles. Because priorities, […]
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At times, I’m going to bring up some spiritual woowoo stuff. Just a head’s up. To me, it’s second nature and, y’know, THE OBVIOUS TRUTH, and stuff I talk about regularly… So it doesn’t stand out to me as weird or hippie/(hippy?) or whatever. But in the last week I’ve had a lot (two) people […]
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