Day 94 of 365: “i’m fine, thanks” and other lies.

I tend to put too much pressure on myself. As if this one post or this one speech or this one BJ or this one dinner is going to be the be-all-end-all for a person or, or life-changing for a group of people. I constantly pressure myself to perform. A lot of times, I hesitate […]

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Day 90! of 365: when old patterns fight good things (“upper limiting”)

It’s easy to forget how far I’ve come. Especially with perfectionistic tendencies and being a HIGH SCORE A+ ACHIEVER person, I can easily mark “NEEDS IMPROVEMENT” on something¬†every day. Also, I am hyper aware of the person I want to become… So much so that I lose track of the beauty of who I am […]

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Day 61 of 365: Reacting differently retrains old patterns.

This new advertisement thing happening via Facebook is overwhelming for me. Each time I log on (which isn’t frequently and is rarely for scrolling; I normally just log on to chat with a few people close to me) I’ll see some advertisement for writing a book or a blog or being a speaker. All things […]

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Day 59 of 365: this human experience is…

I’ve recently come to terms with the fact that I experience life much differently than most. I’ve always felt everything deeply (with the exception of my years of numbing via alcohol and drugs), and I’ve always dealt with random mini-films in my head of fucked up images. I see faces everywhere. In trees. In the […]

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