making new decisions, dialing it down, and stubborn nipples

So. I got my breast implants out almost a year ago now, and living with tiny natural boobies is a rather new experience for me. Part of this experience is me being able to, like, feel things. With my nipple region. Praise baby Jesus. Another part of this is that I’ve tried 30 different bras […]

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the adventures of carl the blob

From the outside, Carl appeared to be quite similar to the other blobs. Really, the main difference was how he saw the world, how he felt, and what he thought. But, since this was all internal, no one else could see it. And they certainly didn’t understand it. The more he opened his mouth and […]

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Day 264 of 365: life is a carousel

Life is a carousel. With limited options of animals to ride. In time, all the creatures look the same. Eyes, mouths, legs, tails, up and down in predisposed rhythmic motions. Animal instincts ripped away, obsolete. I take a defibrillator to my perspective to jumpstart gratitude. Focus on details. Appreciate minutia. Spots. Stripes. Hues of fur. […]

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Day 99 of 365: Larry Leaves — a children’s story

Here is the first part of a children’s story I began last year. This is the first time in a long time I’ve felt excited while reading something I’ve written, and excited to finish it. Larry Leaves Written by Jen Butler “Don’t make me do it!” Larry screamed. “Please… Don’t…” His voice turned to a whimper […]

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Day 73 of 365: your dream = adorable puppy dog.

I have a fingerprint. I know that’s, like, not a surprise. It’s a known thing. But it’s often forgotten, right? As in… We don’t go through the day making a freestyle rap about how we’re each unique (like snowflakes… allegedly*) or how we each have our VERY OWN FINGERPRINT. *HOW DO WE REALLY KNOW. HOW.** **I […]

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Day 69 (teehee) of 365: throwing out the eraser

“I’m totally closed off to you right now,” I said to my therapist. “Okay,” she said, in her normal, allowing tone. She lightly smiled in the way that she does when she’s excited that I’m expressing distaste (because that’s a challenge for me–to tell someone they’ve pissed me off). “Last week, I was in here… […]

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