Day 29 of 30: On wanting more.

She had always wanted more. More than she had. More than she thought possible. More than she thought she deserved. More than others said feasible. She wanted more. She spent each minute planning, analyzing, digging, and hoping to find what she was looking for. She was deeply dedicated and hardworking. She assumed this made her […]

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Day 28 of 30: Clarity comes when I stop trying to do its job.

I am learning that Clarity comes without trying. When not forced. It’s a lot like bubbles. If I chase the bubbles and grasp at them, they’ll pop and float away. This knowledge doesn’t stop the old pattern of me trying to figure everything out, to force Clarity. When I get foggy about something or there’s […]

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Day 22 of 30: On meeting people where they are

Hi there I’d like you to accept me no matter what mood I’m in, please, and then go ahead and always be in the mood *I* want you to be in. KTHX. It seems snooty when said aloud like that, but a lot of people unknowingly live this way. I did for a long time […]

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Day 74 of 365: “dear life partner” — a blast-from-the-past letter

I’ve been working on my second book, entitled “big boobs + thigh gap: a journey beyond conventional beauty”. And by “working on” I mean aptly avoiding for two months. When searching for it today, I came upon a few other documents that acted as excellent distractions from the writing my heart really wanted to do. I […]

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Day 72 of 365: wait. I can be pissed off AND still be spiritual?

Through 12-step programs and codependency work and Buddhist meditation retreats and reading lots and lots of spiritual texts, my interpretation of “being spiritual” and “being aware” was… Essentially… NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS TO YOU, FORGIVE IT. LET IT GO. CHOOSE TO BE UNAFFECTED BY EVERYTHING. Recognize that not everyone is operating from your level of […]

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