The Importance of Discomfort

I am 33 years old and I’m learning how to be an adult. As a kid, I rarely pushed through discomfort. My parents wanted a better life for me than what they had so they gave me all the things I could ever want. For this, I’m eternally grateful. Like anything in life, too much […]

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“Tattered Love Seat” – a poem

I remember when we first met.In that bare 575 square foot apartmentWhere I joked with the leasing agentThat the extra closetWould stash vodka. Blank slate, recently cleaned carpets,And wall space above the tiny fireplaceWhere I would one day put a dry erase boardInstead of a T.V. The Mormon man and his son carried youUp the […]

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MOODY ANIMALS – a coloring book for your emotions

I’ve had lots of amazingly fun breakthroughs lately, which is par for the course after a few weeks in a deep dark pit of despair. I’ve found that depressive episodes are often indicative of old fear being stripped from me, or new motivation being “installed.” I always come out on the other side a better […]

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What I’m afraid to say is…

Sometimes I take things too literally. I’ll hear a statement like “your thoughts and words become your reality” and take it so seriously that I’ll become a hyper-vigilant micro-manager of my thoughts and words and actions. I’ll run everything through a filter. I’ll always be “on.” To an extent, this awareness can be helpful in […]

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5 years of sobriety & 5 miracles

April 5, 2014 was my last drink. It was a swig of Grey Goose right out of the bottle, at around 9AM. Since then, some of the most amazing and magical blessings have come into my life. I mean, it took a shit pile of work to take an honest look at myself, clear out […]

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Overcoming the inevitable “Oh fuck…” point in EVERY creative project

When I get commissioned for a painting, I feel thrilled. Excited. Eager to start. I purchase the supplies necessary and may even watch a YouTube tutorial to make sure my skills are fine-tuned and ready to go. I think about the painting a lot before I do it. I feel giddy. And then I go […]

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