Day 141 of 365: yo. it’s okay to be lazy.

I frequently should all over myself.

I’ll get into this feedback loop in my mind where any anxious energy somehow spews out of the mental container and gets all over my mental to do list.

I think anxiety and fear are just excitement without breath, and I believe the energy can be used to make some rad shit happen… WHEN appropriately and mindfully applied.

In shoulding instances, though, the anxiety feeds the to do list which feeds the anxiety and it becomes…

(I apologize* in advance for that song getting stuck in your head.)

*laugh

We all have a long list of items that need to be done ranging from basic life admin to taking action steps toward dreams. The great news is: they don’t have to be done now.

This isn’t to condone laziness.

Wait–maybe it is.

Here’s what I’ve learned, and here’s what works for me.

The inspiration always comes for me, if I allow it (read: don’t try to force it) to. The organic motivation arises from within to knock out whichever tasks need to get done. I’ll spend three weeks stressing about needing to do them and then get a wild hair up my ass and knock a bunch of stuff out in 30 minutes and feel like a super hero and wonder why I was ever stressing because EVERYTHING ALWAYS WORKS OUT and DAMNIT JEN WE’VE LEARNED THIS LESSON 13987 TIMES.

And so… I’ve allowed myself grace. I’ve allowed myself to chill out. I’ve allowed myself to rest, and to wait for the signs from my body and mind that I’m ready to move forward on whichever task.

From the outside, it may look like I procrastinate. But really, I’m a sprinter. I always have been. It’s my comfort zone. And, rather than try to force myself into a steady marathon race style, I’d rather give myself permission to binge watch Netflix for three days in order to allow my body adequate rest… And then, once inspiration strikes, knock out three days’ worth of stuff within a few hours.

Because life is about enjoyment. It’s about fun. It’s about play. It’s about doing what feels right and good. It’s not about forcing or controlling or bossing ourselves and others around.

At least, that’s the way I look at it.

EMBRACE THE LAZINESS. GIVE YOURSELF A BREAK. TAKE A MENTAL VACATION FROM YOUR PERCEIVED PROBLEMS.

It’s amazing what rest can do for the body, mind, and soul.

<3

~J